The Biak na Rock

I miss my mother dearestright now. She's in the U.S. to be with my uncle. He is undergoing an operation s my mom has to be there along with my other relatives. I want to go with them. My grandpa even insisted me on going there but then, I still have to cope up with my studies and it is already the fourth qtr. So, I should make the most out of the 7 weeks of my third year life. (AWWW!)

We had our field trip.. or should I say.. Educational outbound at Biak na Bato caves and Biak na Bato natural park. Yeah. I bought my cellphone so I could have vanity moments with my friends. The field trip was so fun. I lost track of time when we were already wading in the river. Too bad we had to go early.

When we were inside one of the caves, our facilitator told us that we should recite a chant first. AND GUESS WHAT???..
joketime lang pala yung chant na yun : uto uto ay nako..

It was somthing like that. I dont know if that irritated me or that made me laugh. Hahaha. I was one of the energetic people of Katarungan. I did not even sleep when we were on our way home. Most of my classmates dozed off after the trip. I reckon that 10 out of 48 students were awake on our way home.

My flashlight broke when we were in one of the caves. I lost the bulb and the batteries of the flashlight. Hahaha.

My phone got wet during the river wading. Fortunately, it is still fixed. Wahaha.

nagslide ako sa mud. Hahaha. Mashado kong mahal yung putik. Nabansagan tuloy akong DONA PUTIK ni Kuya Angel. Haha! I LOVE THE MUD SO MUCH. Dami rin vandalisms sa caves. I wonder how they did those. =p

The field trip was so much fun. pero mejo bitin. ENOUGH SAID.

The second year students were so unfair. Hahaha. We were able to reach the school at about 7 evening. The second year students went home at about 10 in the evening. basta mas late.

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Blessings.. in disguise?

While I was staring blankly ahead, a question suddenly popped into my mind.

Why do tears fall from our eyes, if we get hurt by the person we love, who does not love us back anyway? Why? If we cry infront of him or her.. can we assure that he or she will fall into a spell and *pOof* he or she will suddenly fall for me. OF course NOT.

I keep on telling myself to MOVE ON, just laugh it off your shoulders and everything will turn out just fine, BUT NO. The feeling seems to get worst. I know that the essence of crying releases the torments that you feel within, but still, the pain is glued to your heart.

Then suddenly, your fragile heart shatters into pieces and is actually hard to repair.

As I go on in to this journey called life, I get used to every storm that comes as way. My strength grows each day. This is when I realize to stop crying over spilled milk. Theres more to come than what is to be expected. Things happen for a reason. These things serve as the light with what is happening and what will be happening in the near future. We cannot avoid the circumstance of getting hurt. We must keep in mind, that they actually serve as blessings in disguise.

We must learn to accept the reality we are facing in this world. We get our strenghts and we recognize our weaknesses because of these struggles that comes our way. We actually learn from them too.

I love MATH pala :p

I take back what I said before.

I hate Math and Math hates me

Trigo and Geom are two of my favorite tests actually. I got 74/95 in Geom which is 85% and I got 45/50 in Trigo which makes me ubberly happy. Yes. My hard work paid off afterall. Hahaha. My scores are OK (except in Chemistry because I got a FAILING GRADE). Grrrness. Oh Well. I'm not that satisfied though because.. I could have done better.

Haaay.

We have a new band called. E-FEET. It is short for ERASER FEET! Hahaha.My band is composed of Vianca, Krista and Karen. We called our band E-feet because WE LOVE ERASERHEADS and we love singing their songs. Hahaha. Enough said.

Had fun during Chem because I learned HOW TO MAKE ICE CREAM. Hahaha. We also got a plus point.

I thought thatthis day will turn out fine but then, My day was destroyed because of some revealed facts, AND IT HURTS SO MUCH. It hurts like HELL. Pain will always be part of the things that make us happy too.

I hate Math.. and Math hates Me

Geometry and CL Tests were.. such JUST A PIECE OF CAKE......... NOT!
Heck! I felt betrayed after answering those tests. I felt the boiling point of grudge raging inside me after answering those. Ugggh. I guess I will just have to hope for a good score in Geometry.I even played the guessing game when Miss Sabordo decided to collect the papers already. One and a half hour is not enough to finish those mind boggling circle-triangle-chuvaness geometrical questions in the test. Grrr-ness. I envy those people who did not have a hard time answering that Geometry test. I dont think my hard work paid off when I started guessing those answers that I should write on my paper. I had to think twice, if I should guess or no because this is not just a game. This should be taken seriously, but, I had no choice. Time ran so fast. 30% percent of my answers were wild guesses. I dont want to see the result of my test in Geometry. My eyes might turn fiery and I might kill somebody when anger rages inside me again.(JUST KIDDING!)


I need a dose of comedy right now to ease the pain of betreyal inside me.

Happy Birthday | Im 16

WHOA. One of the happiest moments of my entire life happened yesterday. I celebrated my 16th birthday yesterday. Gosh. I feel so old already. Haha!! I think I can already get my student driver's license. I spent 1000++ for the food we ate for my salo2 blowout yesterday. It was so fun even though we had it for a short period of time only. I was glad to receive a lot of greetings from different people. Surprisingly, I receive an e-card from my grandfather and grandmother from the U.S. Wow! I was so touched with the content of the letter. They even told me to go back to the States and have a break from school first. Unfortunately, I cant come because I have to make the most out of my schooldays this fourth quarter. This is my last chance in third year. I must do well. Haha.

Thank you so much to HANA DEKA. (Awww, Unfortunately Maro was absent. :( ) Gem Flores, Patricia Almendra, Jennylyn Escoltero, Yna Mendez, Rosalita Garcia, Rheapaz de Guzman, Nina Gonzales, Paula Lao, Wilma Diguangco, Miss Sabordo, Miss Platon, Andrea, Tete, Karen Torrecampo, and my other classmates for munching on the food I bought for you and for the time and effort you have shared. Hahaha. =p


THANK YOU ANNA IGNACIO for the TEASE I got...... Hahahaha! =p

I also appreciated those people who prayed for my wish. Fortunately, It actually came true. I had my best wish and best gift yesterday. <3 thank YOU. Yes you. For making my birthday HAPPY hah? Haha. :)



We had our exams a while ago in A.P. and English. I had the hard time answering the Bibliography part in English. A.P. was...... dont ask... should I say... ****? HAHAHAHAHA. Especially the cause and effect part. PFFFT.

TAGALOG mode again

Isa sa mga natutunan ko last weekend?....

Hindi lahat ng happy endings ay magtatapos sa happy endings. Laging may nakasabit na depression o kaya naman mga problema.Akala mo sobrang saya mo na dahil sa natural high na naexperience mo. Yung natural high na.. kinausap ka ng crush mo, hinug ka ng best friend mo at kung ano2 pa. Parating may bitbit na problema itong mga happy happenings na toh. Pero sa huli, marerealize mo na tama rin na mangyari toh. Kahit masakit, may natututunan ka naman. In the end, marerealize mo.. happy endings rin naman pala eh. Haha. Ang labo. Siguro parte lang ng climax ng buhay mo ang mga naeexperience mong mga problema, sa huli, may natututunan ka naman eh. Ahahaha. =p

HAPPY BIRTHDAY... sino kaya?... uii bakit ako excited?

HAHAHA!

Friday the 13th is believed to be a day of mishaps, misfortune and unluckiness. I cant agree with that kind of conclusion because for me, it is the opposite. I experience lucky and unforgettable memories that should not be relinquished and are worth remiscing for. Friday the 13th during Feb.13, 2004 was unforgettable for me because once in a BLUE MOON, I had an oppoturnity to be hugged and kissed by someone special who is actually my "past.............love?" *sigh*

TODAY, which is January 13, 2006, I had the chance to sit right next to.. *insert name here*. I felt desperate actually. I even got jealous to the people who sat right next to *INSERT NAME HERE* again. We even had a fruitful conversation. Unfortunately, the rain wasted the opportunity I had. Hahaha! Well, thanks to *toot* I hadthe chance to sit right next to that particular person.

I also had the chance to chat personally with *insert another name here*. Hahaha! I even teased him because of what he will do tomorrow. Gosh. I am so excited for what will be happenning tomorrow. *melts* Ahahaha!

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CL day was fun. I love praising God. I felt the bliss while singing to the tunes of the YFC songs and moving to the groove. It feels good when you do something for the one you love. I am talking about GOD ok?

We also had a grouping. I was part of Group 71. Haha!! Our group is composed of different batches. We had bonding and sharings about different stuffs like the prom, school life, social life and many more. We got the chance to be more united with our other school mates.

We had our fellowship during lunch time. Tears fell from Miss Sabordo's eyes after she shared her share and while sharing her message for us. Some of us cried too, I was one of them.

The Animators Club performed and had their own praise fest too. They were great too. Hehe!

Today is such a praise-filled day.

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++ When you love someone, you cant avoid the circumstance of getting hurt.


TAKTE. nawala yung kalahati ng pinost ko. HAY SALAMAT MAY RECOVER POST KAHIT PAPANO. At least kahit papano may bumalik naman! Haha!

SELF EXPLANATORY PISSED

SELF EXPLANATORY. ampuuu!! Hahaha.

Yesterday was a complete opposite of today. I enjoyed my day yesterday when I had a "quality time" (haha!) with Miss Aureada and Miss Platon. (Hehe!) They are easy to get along with kasi. I guess we are all part of the same generation aya we get along pretty well. Nyahahaha =p

I must say, I guess most of us our pissed off today, and I am one of them. UGH.

Pain

PAIN is raging through me right now. Pain of different sorts.

I felt pain a while ago, during P.E. class. I had my traumatic experience with volleyball. My classmates teased me all the day. I was in pain NOT because they teased me. I can still tolerate their tormenting BUT I hate the fact that I'm such an idiot when playing volleyball.

I felt the pain when I computed my quiz results in Chemistry and Geometry. I envy those people who have great minds. Who can cope easily with the subject. Those people with deep comprehension. Oh, how I wish I would take their place and be in their shoes.

I felt the pain while reading others' blog. Haha. Wanna know why? I feel so insecure with their way with words. They are like walking dictionaries, libraries, novels AND books, etc. etc.

I felt the pain when I recognized my weakness.

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PAIN will always be part of HAPPINESS. Pain will always be a BLESSING IN DISGUISE.

Like what I have said a while back, I DONT know how to play VOLLEYBALL. My classmates make fun of me. This is a GO signal that I should practice my skill with volleyball.

When dealing with Geometry and Chemistry, I must be MORE FOCUSED on the subjects.

We get our STRENGHTS with the struggles and challenges in life.

We must always look at the bright side.

...Afterall, There's a RAINBOW always after the RAIN.

...Once in a Blue Moon

As days pass by, my life is becoming more and more peculiar. Last Friday, I had the weirdest dream ever. Where in my old crush was involve. I had sequences of dreams that time. 3 sequences actually. She was part of all those sequences. WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


During Saturday, someone by the name of the girl whom I was talking about in my dream chatted with me. I was in doubt if I was really talking to that particular person. My hands and knees suddenly shivered while I was talking online with _________. My heart was pounding rapidly. TAKTE. I grabbed my cell phone right away. Surprisingly, once in a blue moon, I was brave enough to ask and text that someone in particular. She told me that she didn’t go online that night. Tears started to pour from my eyes. I felt like I lost a million bucks. SERIOUSLY. Then, my heart suddenly told me, that I’m missing that particular someone. WHOA! I feel so stupid. I thought she would not interfere with my tranquil life anymore. I thought I had moved on. I wished I already did. I'm just making a fool out of myself.

Thinking about a person who utterly loathes me, wounds, tears and breaks my fragile heart.

Poetry by Me

I have a new layout.. and I luuuurve it. :)

I'm going to share a poem I made 2 days ago. I don't have a title for it pa eh. Haha! =p

Staring blankly at the sky
I suddenly began to cry
A thought of you ran through my head
Many words have been left unsaid

Why do you have to go away?
I want you to know, you left me astray
I’ll do anything for you to come back and stay
And hold you tight like theres no other day

Good luck with your new someone
I hope she is the perfect one
I’ll pray to God to love you so true
Just like the way I did to you

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Here is another poem I made a while ago.

HE
He brings out the frustrations in me
but gives me inspiration
all i want for him to know and see
that hes the cause of my world's confusion

he is not worth the wait
but he's the one whom i love so true
and that's what i really hate
he, not being with me.. makes me truly blue

Majoring in...

PHILOSPHY?!!? (huwaaat?!!?)

I never thought of that course before.

I was answering a quiz because I'm still confuse of what major I will be taking up on college. While I was brwosing through my friend's journal.I saw this quiz.

I thought to myself, Hey maybe this quiz can give me an idea on what to take up on college.
I got PHILOSOPHY. I was thinking maybe.. Mass Communication, Journalism, Theater literature. or Literature (Filipino or English)

This quiz made me more confused!! Haha!

There were tie breaking questions. I have to answer one so that they would give the appropriate course or major for me.


I love studying languages.

2
I enjoy thinking about the meaning of life, and what it has in store for me.

3
I am passionate about aesthetics, forms, and movements.

4
I love expressing myself in speech and actions.

5
I love drawing.

6
I like writing to communicate with others through notes, letters.

7
I love how the human psyche works.

8
I enjoy the study of people interactions.


I answered...
I enjoy thinking about the meaning of life, and what it has in store for me.

And that's how I got PHILOSOPHY.

Hahaha. Wow.


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You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence. Theater 100% Dance 100% Philosophy 100% Linguistics 100% Journalism 100% Sociology 100% Art 100% Psychology 100% Biology 92% Engineering 83% English 83% Anthropology 83% Mathematics 67% Chemistry 58% What is your Perfect Major? created with QuizFarm.com

Lets face CIVILIZATION again | 2006 Resolution

I will make the most out of my time right now. I will be going back to school again tomorrow. I am feeling sad and excited all at the same time. I want to go back to school because I miss ranting out my feelings to my friends. I miss "making lambing VIOLENTLY" with my silly and witty friends . I miss sharing stories "in person". I miss "making tambay and making bola" in the corridors as well. Haha.. and its simply boring here at home.

I do not want to come back because I'm not ready with the challenges I must face again. I'm not ready to deal with Geometry, Chemistry, Trigonometry and the list goes on. Its too early and it seems so sudden that I must face them again. Oh Gee.
I will be celebrating my birthday next week. I will be receiving the GREATEST BIRTHDAY GIFT that the school has to offer... QUARTERLY EXAM.

Instead of going out with family or some bunch of friends, I'm stuck at home reviewing for the test. I'm not used to this. We never had exams before, during or after my birthday.

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I will be listing down some of my new year wishes and resolution here

+ I won't be saying badwords anymore.

+ I must sleep early so I won't doze off when class is still going on.

+ Must stop procrastination

+ Must be contented with whatyou have. STOP BEING INSECURE.

+ I must be ready to TAKE THE RISK RIGHT AWAY. No more NEXT TIMES before it is TOO LATE.

+ I must keep in mind that PERSONS ARE NOT WORTH CRYING FOR.

+ MUST MEET SAM MILBY (hahaha! =) )

+ must meet CHAMP LUI PIO again!

+ must meet ROBERT PATTINSON!

+ LEARN HOW TO PLAY THE DRUMS and the GUITAR

+ Must meet ELY BUENDIA!!!!!!!!!!!!.. and the rest of the ERASERHEADS

+ Never EXPECT TOO MUCH (or not even expecting at all) You end up hurting yourself anyway.

School Schmool Part

Happy New Year Everybody. My RELAX-FIRST-BEFORE-PROJECT-MAKING days are offcially over. I must be productive enough to deal with the hardships and vexations of my third year life are settled for me right now. Hahahaha. 2 more days to go and I'm off to school again. I'll be sitting there and will be listening to the jiber jabbering of the teachers once again. Wahaha. I'll be seing those numbers, sine, cosine, dusty chalkboards, noisy students that chase each other around the corridors. The school's athmosphere. I actually miss it.

At last, I'm done with my HRR and I'm almost done with my Media Log. Wuhoo! =P

Here's a part of my insight in my HRR that I really like

Love is a give and take relationship. What do I mean by that? The one who is committed to each other should share love equally. If you feel that one is giving too much or receiving too much, I don’t think that true love dwells in a relationship. Before dealing with this kind of challenge, you must know the one first before settling yourself in a commitment. One must be loyal to his or her companion. One must listen to his or her heart and choose only one. How many hearts do a person have? Only one. That heart is given to only one person. Love is like a game; only one person takes the goal. You must keep those things in mind when you taking the risk of involving in a commitment.