Last Day

I have not updated for quite some time because I had been very busy bee since this week is our exam week. I felt the entire bliss when I realized that I actually passed the auditions even though I auditioned for the sake of "enjoyment". Haha.

We're done with our examinations. I saw my tests in Chemistry and Geometry. I passed but I was still not satisfied with my scores.

The Trigo test was a pain in the butt. Hahaha. I have this feeling that I actually failed the test.

Oh Well.

I can't believe that TODAY is actually the last day of our school. I am feeling happy and depressed at the same time.

I am feeling depress because the school will surely be missed. I will miss the mentors I had who wont teach us in fourth year anymore. I am going to miss my friends, I am going to miss Katarungan. I will miss CHEMISTRY, GEOMETRY, and SURPRISINGLY, the subject that I dread remembering that we actually had that subject... TRIGONOMETRY.

I will miss Crisostomo Ibarra and Padre Damaso.

I will miss Hamlet, his soliloquy, and HAMLET SESSIONS with Miss Platon.

Speaking of Miss Platon, because of her astounding personality and her arousing compassion that reigns in her, she gained a lot of "fans". Haha. Her class even gave her a WE LOVE YOU GOODBYE PARTY whatever you call it. She will surely be missed by ME of course and by a lot of other students as well. I will miss Miss Platon. It is not enough that she taught our batch for just a year. She is one of the coolest, adorable, effective, and of course BEAUTIFUL teachers that I have met.

I brought our cam a while ago, which is the reason WHY my mom got soooo angry and had reprimanded me a while ago. Im glad she is NOT mad anymore for I already apologized to her. Wheeww. Saying sorry is such a powerful action. Hahaha!! =p I dont want to argue about it anymore, so to fix what has to be fixed, I immediately apologized to her.

My friends and I had a gimmick at Galleria and we also watched Nanny McPhee. The story is impeccable and interesting. It is a must see movie, especially for kids. Particularly NAUGHTY KIDS.

Mwahahaha.

I had a tremendous moment with my friends.. We need to feed ourselves with fun right now. Afterall those stressful and truckloads of works we had gone through, we deserve to take a break. Hahaha :)

Happy Vacation Everyone.

Not HER fault

We just finished the story of Hamlet a while ago. A lot of people missed the fun part due to their procrastination or lack of sleep I guess. I find the story amusing. Mr. William Shakespeare has the way with words. His ingenuity would make the readers "keep on going" until the story ends.

Anyway, Miss Platon got very upset a while ago because a lot of people procrastinated for the term paper. A lot of my batchmates went half day a while ago maybe because they finished their term paper or they simply lacked rest.

I was so appalled to hear that most of the students blamed Miss Platon. Their reason was, Miss Platon did not give us enough time to finish it. I mean, she is not to be blamed. She gave us enough time tomake our notes on the index card. So by the time she gave us the outline, we should have already started with THE NOTE TAKING. By the time she gave us the outline, it is the time for us to just simple rewrite and type the information we have gathered.

I felt Miss Platon's grief when she explained to me how the students reacted with the "term paper incident" and I also felt bad for her. :

GodBodykins MEHN! Hahaha

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Moderate
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Low
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test


Am I really that... bad????! :

Anyway, Thank Heavens Im done with my TERM PAPER. We also received our "souvernirs" for the prom.

One more week to go...

and off we go to paradise once more. Nevertheless, it makes me sad though for I will miss my "schoolmates" though, especially my third year classmates which is III POSTE! Hahaha. According to.. that UGH! :)
I am going to miss my teachers especially those who wont be teaching our batch anymore.

THIRD YEAR

This paraphrasing whatever, is driving me nuts. It is for our term paper just so you know. I will be spending the whole night paraphrasing and researching for the term paper. Wah. It ruins not only my brain and my beauty( haha! ) as well. This is not even the only projects or other school stuff we have. I still have to memorize the formula for Geom, finish the index cards, read Hamlat and Noli Me Tangere… and……. Urgh. I don’t want to elaborate them here anymore.

2 more weeks to go before the school year ends. A part of me feels the excitement and the bliss for I won’t be experiencing exasperation with my school works anymore.

The other part of me makes me feel depress for I am going to miss my friends, I’m going to miss Katarungan and of course the teachers who won’t be handling us anymore.

Mrs. Dino is one of them. Mrs. Dino is a very cool teach for she knows how to ride on with us. I’m going to miss that SUPERSTAR! I’m going to miss that drama queen Mrs. Torralba. Hehehe! I’m going to miss that crazy but sweet teach. :)

Miss Jennifer Jo Platon will surely be missed by me. I am not sure if she will still stay at school. Even though she will be still staying in SHS, its not going to be the same for I will miss the moments where in she would be in front of our classroom discussing verbs, literature, poetry and of course, HAMLET. HAHAHA :) She was one of the teachers na “kakulitan” ko.. and I love her because of her endearing patience :( AWWW. Ah bsta! I learned SO much from her. I learned to be careful and critical because of Miss Platon. HAHAHA! :)

Miss Malayas and Miss Canivel will not be our teachers anymore. They were great mentors as well. You will never fall asleep when they are the ones discussing in front of you.

Third Year Life will surely be missed. Despite the facts that I receive line of sevens in the giving out of report cards, and those sleepless nights to be able to finish our projects, THE STRESS THAT THE JUNIOR LIFE BRINGS US….

It changed my whole life and helped me become a more mature person. It widened my intellectual capacity. I learned a lot from different experiences. I had moved on with my horrid past. I met these certain people who I never thought, that would help me change for the better. My wacky crazy but sweet and supportive classmates bring me joy whenever I see them and make fools out of themselves. Nyahaha :)

Dance Craze

I started auditioning in 2 of our performing arts club in school. I tried out in the Pep Squad and Aglaia Dance Club. Both of them are clubs that involve my passion which is dancing. Hahaha. Dance is actually one of My hobbies that serve as a stress reliever. Hehe. It is like a drug because you get addicted to it and once you get addicted to it, the problems in you would simply go away.

Two more weeks to go before the summer craze that everybody has been looking forward to. Hahaha.

I was actually planning of joining Pinoy Big Brother Teen Edition, however, I remembered that I have to review for my college application. I want to join actually, not because of fame. but simply because I want to have fun. Hahaha. I would like to know the feeling of being stuck at home with different kinds of people WITHOUT computers, cellphone and television sets. I would like to sacrifice for a good cause.

But then again, I guess that education is more important than personal satisfaction.

just so YOU know

My senseless rants and childish tantrums were just plain futal. I was in a bad state a while ago for the fact that I thought my mom would reprimand me for being late TEN TIMES and for having my supervised work. Fortunately, she just aksed for the papers she would be signing and she did not raise a tone on me which is actually a "relief" for my part.

There is a BAD news though. I had a fight with someone due to the incompetancy of controlling my extreme emotions. I know it is my bad, my fault that the person got mad at me but sometimes, we cant avoid the circumstance of releasing it to someone who is not even involve in your "bad" situation.

I can't help myself anymore because the tension and pressure is there already. The thoughts in your mind would bother and keep on telling you how your mom would react to such kind of mischievous behaviour you have caused.

I guess I shall just take this consequence as one of life's "uplifting" challenges and learn from it as well.

Poetry Mode

Here's another poem I made a while ago. : An outlet frommy boredom I guess. Hahaha :)

Have not thought of the title yet but here is it anyway. :)

Those precious memories that linger my mind
Trying my best to just leave them behind
Tears fell from my luminous eyes
For those which I kept were ought to be lies

Im drowning in tears
Im trapped with my fears
This ecstasy has driven away
The one that makes my fulfilling day

I simply mutter, I must move on
How can I? If you are now gone?
Into the depths of my soul, and the roots of my veins
You are the one that simply reigns

This mourning of mine would never cease
Until that very moment, that you give me my please
I now stare at the vacuous space ahead of me
Waiting desperately to see, once again your ethereal beauty

Blablabla

So many days have passed since I decided to write an entry here once again. School schedule has been very hectic recently. We have so many projects to accomplish and so many deadlines to meet. I promised myself thatI would not cram anymore, theres a problem though, there is this unidentified thing that hinders me from avoiding the habit you know?

I guess it is probably because of what is happening to me recently. I have learned so many things fromthe past few days of my existence.

Things ALWAYS happens for a reason. Probably one of the reasons why I am experiencing "hard- life situation right now and the reason why I can't seem to find the right path to road I'm passing is because, perhaps, I seldom communicate with God through prayer. the arguement I had with my dad, that certain gesture thatsignifies something which is not "right" and the times where in I can't concentrate with schoolworks are the factors that became opened my eyes. It is my "AWAKENING MOMENT". God is calling me and reminding me that I am becoming distant from him once more.

I thought that this day would turn out right. I guess I when I realized I woke at the wrong side of the bed this morning. I thought this nightmare would not haunt me down anymore, but it still clings on me, not just in my mind, but also,in my heart, and in my soul as well.

I can't tell you exactly what these are because I rather keep things in private. Oh! What has gotten into me this past few days? Is this because of STRESS? TOO MUCH WORK? TOO MUCH SCHOOL WORK?

Waah. I must avoid these circumstances. I must avoid PARANOID-ism. OHMYF**KINGGOODNESS!

I am getting interested in Noli Me Tangere nowadays. I even remember Miss Aniago telling us, that the anxieties and worries that are bottled up inside us are the ones that make our body sick,physically and literally.

Worrying about my worries makes me worry more because of what might happen to me. Waaah. What would cause my sickness? Will I die at an early age? Hahahaha

SPEAKING OF DEATH...

Every night, before I cry myself to sleep, I imagined what would.. uhh life(?) be like when we DIE. That question really intrigues me right now. The only way on how I can solve the puzzle of this mystery is TO DIE of course, but I guess, Im not yet ready. I wonder how those dead souls feel lurking around the globe, doing there unfinish business, flying and floating and even passing through SOLID OBJECTS. Those objects whose molecules are COMPACT. Hahaha. (AM I TALKING SCIENCE HERE?) Oh COMMON. Hahahaha.

I'm sorry for this useless entry for my mind right now, is experiencing technical difficulties. My nervous system is breaking down, My eyes are swollen and my knees are shaking baby. Hahahaha

Events that probably change my life from the pastfew days are

The Entrep Practimcum, selling, selling, AND YES.. earning MONEY of course. (TALK ABOUT MATERIALISM) TSSSS. :)

CAREER AWARENESS TALK.

Once again, it confused me more. Charie Kay and I even made a list of blurry future. YES. my BLURRY future.

WHAT ELSE

Watching JUST LIKE HEAVEN and MEMOIRS of GEISHA.
Looking forward to watching BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN.
Fighting for my belief. Yeah. The one my dad and I had argued about a while back.

He told me to throw away my broken mirror for it brings bad luck, according to the Chinese. He got mad at me for telling him that I ain't Chinese and I dont believe in those kinds of stuff.

I DONT WANNA BELIEVE IN THOSE KINDS OF STUFF. It is REALLY STUPID. Well, Im not saying that Chinese are stupid, but the fact that BELIEVING to those kinds of superstition seems pointless to me.

I broke my mirror once,

DID I EXPERIENCE MY SEVEN YEARS OF BAD LUCK.

If i did, I would not probably be alive right now. I would not probably be studying in a school with good education. I would not have good friends who are always there. I would not have overprotective but caring parents who knows what is good and right for me. I never would have met.. that certain someone that TOUCHED my life, and changed my life, who inspired me not only with the works that that person is giving us, but also, in dealing with life, being an instrument and inspiration to others as well and being the GOOD PERSON that God wants us to be. Hahahaha.

Writing the thoughts I have in mind, makes me feel betttaaah. I guess blurting out my feelings to others is another therapy for me to be cool, calm and to bring my mind back where it actually belongs.

HUWAAT?

Absent

I was absent in school a while ago. (I guess I missed A WHOLE LOT today.) I was absent because... uhm, lets just keep this a secret... I was justtoo lazy to go to school. Hahaha. Nah, Im just kidding.

I had technical difficulties with my digestive system last night. It was probably because I did not abstain myself from the dredulous temptation of *** absolute goodness. (NGEE). It serves as an ultimate punishment for me. Nyahahahaha. Goodness. I'm feeling much better now, although, I can still feel a little "grumbling" in my stomach. Haha!!