Overload

Have been busy from the past few days. Hahaha. Done with the review classes. Some say its just a waste of money.. well for me, it is somewhat worth it. I got to learn great new things. Like Physics and some Calculius what sh*ts. However, I can't seem to cope with it yet. Hahaha. But at least I have a "scoop" of it already.

I miss my "NEW FRIENDS" from the review. Awwww. I met A LOT of new people. and.. *ahem ahem*, have a new crush.. and I hope my crush for :) will alleviate my feelings for this certain person that I like so much for like 10 1/2 months. Gaaah. And it seems that our friendship is being destroyed by a loquacious spark. get what i mean? Go figure. Hahaha.

My body hurts and head aches from the training; nevertheless its fun. Its what I want and I know it ain't easy so I must face the dirty(literally dirty) work and obligation. Hahaha. ;)

Infesting Boredom

I miss THESE




III - POSTE Katarungan :) and Miss Sabordo of course. :)





HANA DEKA. My homeroom group/ kada. ;)
* Maxirose Enriquez, Ellanie Recalde, Charie Kay Gonzales, Kim Mapua. Anne Cunanan, Vianca Ramirez and Danica Perez ( me ;) )





Miss Platon


Mrs. Dino


Mrs. Torralba


Miss Aureada


Miss Sabordo

I miss OUR TEACHERS :)



gloria margarita amansec flores a.k.a. BEVS.:) My close-batchmate friend. Hihihi ;)


Room Three-Two-Three - The Chemistry Laboratory :) and Mrs. Torralba ;)

Unknownymous

I haven't been online for the past few days due to what has been going on with my so called life. OK.. Let us start with my Review Classes. Whoa. I really don't feel like I'm on a summer break right now because I am actually studying for our entrance exams. We have Been receiving a lot of exams from the past few days. I've made new friends. I've refreshed my mind on some certain terminologies blablabla but reviewing has been a big help for me.. and for the rest of us I guess.

OK. I have recovered from my sickness.. which is.. hyperacidity.. whatever.. something.. that might lead to ulcer. I vomited for 2 consecutive days. Ewww. The feeling, of course, is very.. disturbing. So I decided to visit the doctor right away.

My vast emotions have a big impact to this sickness of mine. There are certain people that I miss, and somehow, every time I eat, these emotions would bother me, hence, I can't force myself to eat properly anymore. I loose my appetite. My friends kept telling me.. that I should not be affected by that. Yes. They were right. It's just that.. I feel so da*n helpless. I can't help it.

Waaah. Since, I've read this certain book, a book about.. sickness, parts of the body, LIFE.. I have been so paranoid with what life is setting for me. With what life is throwing at me. Lately, I have been feeling these eerie feelings that my life span is becoming shorter and shorter..and Death is drawing near I know I should not be thinking about this but somehow, I must be prepared and be ready for what will be happening in the near future.

Survey :)

10 Friends You Couldn't Live Without
1. GOD :)
2. Parents are considered as one. haha :)
3. Gem Flores
4. Charie Kay
5. Ellanie
6. Vianca
7. Maro
8. Anne
9. Kim Mapua
10. Nikki Tan
.. and all my friends! :) Hahaha :)

9 Stores you obsess over
1. Astro Vision
2. Toy Kingdom
3. Bath and Body Works
4. Artwork
5. 50th Avenue (Galle)
6. Penshoppe
7. Bench
8. Blue Magic
9. Candy Corner

8 of your Favorite Food
1. Sinigang
2. Candies and Chocolates
3. Pasta
4. McDonald's
5. Wendy's Bacon Mushroom Melt
6. Frosty
7. Steak Ala Pobre ;)
8. Caesar Salad

7 of your Favorite tv shows/channels
1. Fairly Oddparents
2. Danny Phantom
3. Mad TV
4. Myx
5. MTV
6. Lifestyle Network
7. That's So Raven

6 Magazines you occasionally read
1. Candy
2. Meg
3. Good Housekeeping
4. Entertainment
5. Voices (Ha!Ha!)
6.
7.

5 of your Favorite colors
1. Black
2. Brown
3. Pink
4. Purple
5. Orange

4 of your Favorite bands
1. Eraserheads
2. The Beatles
3. Black Eyed Peas
4. The Carpenters


3 of your favorite sports/activities
1. Dancing, Singing :P
2. Writing
3. Picture Taking


2 of your favorite websites
1. Thesis Statement ;)
2. Friendster :)

1 personality trait you look for in a guy/girl
1. Real :)

Happy Easter

Easter's Fun. Hahaha. :)

You wanna know why? =p

I got a bit dissappointed for the fact that I actually missed the "Salubong". I was looking forward to watching that for the first time today, unfortunately, my folks were still asleep when I woke up at about 4. Too Bad.

Anyway, Let's look at the bright side of the day.

I was able to choose a restaurant that served us scrumptious lunch, and I was able to hit the jackpot at the arcade. I won 100+ tickets in one game. I didn't expect to win. I just stood there, tried out the game and whoopps, I was very lucky to shoot the ball into the jackpot hole. Haha. :)

I was able to get so many prizes from the redemption area of the arcade which actually made my day.

Happy Easter you guys.

Today is a day of enlightenment and reconcilliation. Hahaha. :P

Summer School Huh?

Guess What? I have to wake up early again tomorrow for my review classes. So, its like having school during summer huh? =pThe schedule is quite similar to the schedule I had during school days. The only difference is that, I will be studying in a new location,I'll be meeting new bunch of people from different schools, and I would not miss lunch time at Katips' Restaurant near our review center. Yumeeh!

The bright side of it is that, I wouldn't be stuck at home and be with Mr. Boredom, whipping my ass off and killing my satisfaction. The bad news is, I would have to sleep early every night, and would have to wake up early during the morning.

I guess this summer is going to be a hectic one. a VERY BUSY one.

+ Training ( Monday - Saturday )
+ Driving Lessons
+ Review Classes

Good Luck to me. Hahaha :)

Still Bored

I found this in Patty's blog. Hahaha. I got astonished by the "article" just so you know.

1. "Mwah" means... "I love you"
2. "Wala lang" means..... "I miss you"
3. "Ok ka lang?" means... " ano ka hilo?!?!"
4. "Hay nako!" means..... " seryoso ako"
5. "Ingat ka lagi" means... "I care for you"
6. "Musta na?" means... " sino'ng love mo?"
7. "Secret" means..... " ikaw"
8. "Ano'ng problema mo?" means... " hurt naman ako"
9. "Kayo pa rin ba?" means.... "ako naman"
10. "Chick boy ka pala eh!" means..... " ang kapal mo!!!"
11. "Grabe ha!!!" means... " selos ako"
12. "Saan?" means..... " sama ako!"
13. "Shit!" means... " ako na lang kasi eh!!"
14. "Inaantok na ako" means..... "wala kang kwentang kausap"
15. "May gagawin pa ako eh" means..... "maghanap ka ng kausap mo"
16. "Bakit naman?" means..... "alam mo namang ikaw lang"
17. "Nakakaaliw ka" means..... "ang cute mo"
18. "Ewan" means..... " oo "
19. "Ganon?" means... "kapal mo!!"
20. "Eh kasi" means... " nahihiya ako"
21. "Talaga lang ha?" means... "naku, bola!!"
22. "Basta" means... "wag kang makulit"
23. "Busy ka?" means... " kausapin mo naman ako"
24. "Pwede ba" means... " mas cute naman ako sa kanya "
25. "May kasabay ka?" means..... "nood tayo ng sine & kain sa labas"

Boredom

Here's an outlet out of my boredom. Hahaha :)



Making a SOUTH PARK Character

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Happy Holy Week you guys. Have you thought about your sacrifice?

I already did. And its going pretty well. (I think?) Kinda devasted though. Hahaha :) WEIRD.

DANICA FOR SALE

I am worth $1,315,130 <-- Click this site to know your worth. Wahahahahahaha :)

Ay, There's The Rub

As soon as I woke up, I grabbed the copy of Hamlet and place the VCD in the player. I realized that when I was watching the movie, it made me miss English Sessions more. awww! I love the way how Miss Platon was able to help us understand the context of the story. Hahaha.

But Anyway....

I can't distinguish what I'm currently feeling right now. Maybe I'm just friggin bored.

Oh Yeah.. I had this strange dream (?) errr.. nightmare..
Anyway, here's how it goes,

We were in the classroom, and then Miss Galicha barged in giving us back our test papers in Media Awareness I think? Most of us failed the test and some of us got even a ZERO score. I was one of those people who got a zero mark which is pretty embarassing. Hahaha. It seemed so real. The test has cleft my heart in twain.

And then, here's the strange part of it. Miss Galicha called me to recite and asked me to narrate a story of something blabla, I forgot what the question was all about. When I stood up, I can hear the screams and chants and cheers of my classmates. my KATARUNGAN classmates. Hahahaa!

GO DANICA. and then when I stood up.. everybodsy went "WOOHOOOOO!" and then the crowd became noisy.. Then all of the sudden, somebody threw a piece of sandwich to someone. I think it was Cha who started "the food fight" HAHAHA. Koko got so angry, and then, she told us to shut up. The other sections were tactless as well. Then, everybody from Katarungan stood up, pushed the chairs and tables, screaming and running around the classroom and didn't care how small the classroom is. Some were even throwing their books, notebooks and bags even.

AND TO THINK...MISS GALICHA WAS STILL THERE, I think she was frozen with a horrid look on her face.

and then the place turned all black all of the sudden. Then after that, All I can see was scribbles of random words and names and then I suddenly woke up feeling exhausted. Hahahaha :)

Food Galore

Guess who's going to GAIN WEIGHT this summer. Wahahaha.

I have been feasting on different kinds of scrumptious food lately and not being "weight concious" at all. Hahaha :)

Yesterday..

I've been stuffed by McDonald's Big Mac, Fries, Spaghetti and Chicken. Yummmeeeeh.

And today, what did I have in my award winning menu?

I had Bacon Mushroom Melt Combo Meal ( that includes the fries and the coke and the burger of course), Frosty from Wendy's, a bag of Candy Corner Candies, a tumbler cheese popcorn and Nachos as well.





I snagged some couples of VCDs too from Astro Vision too.



Yeah. I just can't help my hand from grabbing the copy when I saw this from the store. I really miss Hamlet sessions with Miss Platon so I decided to check out its scenarios through moving pictures. Hahaha :)



The Phantom of the Opera. I've been dying to watch this movie coz a lot of my friends say its good. Hahaha :)

you can NEVER EVER please everyone

Warning: This entry may contain words that aren't suitable for very young readers. and I apologize for all the "prOfanity" that you will be seeing while reading this entry.

I heard this line when I was watching this cartoon before I went to bed and before perchancing to dream. (Yep! Missing Hamlet already!) Wahahaha

The girl in the show was flirting with this certain guy who barely notices her, and tries to tell the guy that EVERYBODY is dying just to have her. I know, its pretty lame.. Hahaha!

Anyway, There's this one incident that suddenly went accross my mind after I heard those certain lines. There was this.. uhm kid who sent a message of grief towards me. I have no idea who this person is because she actually used the name of my friend.


She said things like

(4/4/06 10:39:09 PM): feeling popu!
(4/4/06 10:39:15 PM): feeling hottie!
(4/4/06 10:39:28 PM): mukang tanga!

and even called me

"danica puta perez"

You should have seen the scrutiny on my face while I was reading those trashy statements.

I was not replying not because I was scared, I WAS NOT SCARED AT ALL. In fact, I would definitely want to fight back.. but fighting back would actually make things worst.Right now, a friend of mine, who used to be my seatmate, is helping me to patch things up with this kid, and so far, I guess things are getting better, but not yet at its best. Hopefully, maging OK na ang lahat.

Eto lang ang masasabi ko for now, kung may nagawa man akong masama sayo.. or kung talagang feeling ako.. gusto ko ng mag sorry.. at ikaw.. matagal na kitang napatawad. Sana maging OK na ang lahat.

baby you can DRIVE my car

I was in a middle of a nightmare when all of the sudden I felt a sudden gesture on my back. I thought it was the beach monster that was capturing me because he and his companions wouldn’t want me to swim in the deep blue sea. Some of my friends and I were in this resort whatever beach in where there were monsters who were guarding this beach whatever in my dream. It was actually my mom who was trying to wake me up. It was 8 in the morning and my body is telling me to go back to sleep once more.

I slept at about 1 am because I watched Power Rangers on Cartoon Network. I was texting some people too.

Sleeping and watching TV are actually my therapies for my insomniac-ness.

My mom woke me up early because my dad brought me to LTO whatever to be able to get my student’s driver’s permit.

The experience was actually infuriating at first because the parking lot was full so my dad had to park someplace else. We had to walk all the way from afar to LTO under the raging and intense heat of the sun. It felt as if we were being cooked.

When we got there, I got to sign forms, have my picture taken and I had to wait for a very long time for my permit to be finished. When I got my permit, I expressed my gratitude towards my dad. :)

Despite his hectic schedules and work, he managed to accompany me to get what I have been dreaming of. Hahaha. :) I am now capable of being a driver of my own self.. well.. almost. :)

I am looking forward to that moment in where I would actually be the one to turn on and start the engine and to hold the steering rod.. I mean steering wheel and turn turn turn.

Hahaha. I am looking forward to my driving lessons next week I think? :) My dad is already teaching me on how to check if the gas is full, or I need to refill the gas already, or if the car will overheat whatever. Hahaha. :)

I’m actually scared and excited at the same time. :)

Excited because of the fact that I will learn to drive my own car and scared because of the risk that might come my way.

Happy Birthday Maro

Can't think of anything to write right now.

I was about to watch The Prince and Me 2 when all of the sudden, while a was watching the film I noticed something eerie.

THE MOVIE WAS MUTE. Meaning, it doesn't have sounds.

So, I ended up watching Brokeback Mountain instead.

It was nice. The movie was quite sad though. I never expected that I would actually cry. Hahahaha. weird!

Oh by the way, I have a new layout. Hahaha weird.

Summer Bummer

I have not updated for quite sometime already. So anyway, I am here once again to elaborate you with some of the things I did that made my summer.. let us say, a bit wholesome.

Last Week, we had our rehearsals for our dance recital that was held last Friday. I met new people and gained new friends and I am sure that I am going to miss them.

Global Crossovers, our recital was a big success I guess, even though the people I invited were not able to watch. Dancing is REALLY my passion. Dancing keeps me busy and helps me forget the "stuvs" that disturb me. Its just like a drug. You get addicted to it and helps you forget the problems occurring around.

YEAH!

Yesterday, Charie, Anne, Tricia, her sister, her neighbor and her ate and I went to SM Fairview. We commuted all the way. Yes! Commuting is one big step to adulthood and independence. Hahaha!! :) We watched a movie entittled SHE'S THE MAN.

The movie is actually good. I did not have any idea what the movie was all about but when I got to see it, I actually liked it. The guy there, Channing Tatum (Hahaha. his name sounds like a girl's name) is a real hot guy. Hahahaha.

I MUST distruct myself and keep myself busy this summer.

It came across my mind that boredom has a big impact on my emotional state. Mood Swings challenge me whenever I get bored. Maybe Im just overexposed to the outside world. Hence, I must get used to being at home.

I have made my decision on what to sacrifice this lenten season. I must abstain myself from *toot*. I talk to that person like almost everyday.. because.. I simply miss that person. I hope sometimes when *toot* gives me the silent treatment, it does not mean that... *toot* is actually... irritated. I like it better when people are straight to the point.

My World Revolves around Confusion and Paranoia

Once again, its me.. typing my heart out with all the mishaps that have been going on with my so called "life".

Let's start with what happened yesterday.

I wounded myself physically and emotionally. alright.

What's with the emphasis on the emotionally side??...

It is actually for the fact that the emotional side HURTS MORE than the physical side. The emotional side requires a long period of time for the wound to heal.

Anyway...

What Happened "YESTERDAY" anyway?

OK... Let's start with my Monday morning. My morning was just fine until I finally decided to agree upon "something wrong".

I shouldn't have done it in the first place. Little did I know, that SHE was actually there. I was referring to "someone" to who, for me, is an antagonist.

Backstabbing as it may seem but that is what I feel towards her. It's not because I'm jealous or anything. Alright. Let me admit it. Straight to the point. I AM ACTUALLY JEALOUS seeing her very close to *toot*. I'm jealous because she does not feel anxious whenever this certain person around. I'm not really mad at her, I am actually mad........ at me. I loathe myself for being such a coward. Oh Gee, Why does it have to be this way?


Another incident happened during the evening. I think I'm actually... "liking" this certain someone again.

And at the peak of my admiration towards that person it seems as if.. were parting ways. Everytime I try to talk to this person, that person seems always busy. Well, that person is not actually busy.... but.... I guess that person consumes the time with some other friends. Which leaves.. me.. again.. nothing.. but... still.. envious... and miserable.. and paranoid. AND WHATEVER. Hahaha.

I just can't explain what I truly feel right now.

I guess I am just missing this people.

UGH.

It drives me insane whenever I miss certain people in my life.

I even tell THESE PEOPLE that I actually miss them, I like having them around and so on and so fourth.. but sometimes, its as if, for them.... its just.. plain.. NOTHING.

I know for a fact, that they actually needed a little more space............. but something inside me hinders myself........ for giving them..... S-P-A-C-E

I guess I'm just used to having them around.

ugh. Once again, I loathe myself.

Truly Bittersweet

[ mood | frustrated ]
[ music | If you leave me now ]

I dont want to leave this blog unupdated so here I am once again.

I am here to elaborate this certain someone, whom I've been talking about from the past few months. Should I use the name Joe, to make it easier for me to type. (Joe is just a screenname ok?)

So anyway let's continue.

Joe and I had parted ways in an unexpected way. I waited in vain, and even missed an event that I was looking forward to just to have some quality time with Joe. Joe had so many "fans" that is why I've waited for soooo looong to express how extremely thankful I am for touching my life. Not just my life but the lives of loads as well. As I have mentioned in her oh so expressive and so cheesy letters, her ethereal exquisiteness and impeccably meek personality would never be forgotten by me.

The day when she finally came to my life made me realize that this might be the start of a so called "innovative life". As days pass by, I started to realized that from time to time, she is the person who actually helped me "recover" from a traumatic express from my horrid past. And as time passes by, little by little, I finally learned how to appreciate and love her as well. I never really like her at first. I thought she'd make things hard for me but she proved me wrong.

I felt various emotions because of Joe. There were times where in I feel utterly inspired because of her. Whenever I stare at the vacuous space ahead of me then her face or her name suddenly barge in my mind, I suddenly smile making a fool out of me. I just can't help but feel the bliss whenever I think about her. I know that there are moments where in I would simply be happy because of her. Ironic as it may seem but oftentimes, I loose my sanity because of her. There are times where in I would feel the grudges as well.

There are times where the river flows from my luminous eyes.

Those are the times, when I feel paranoid because at the back of my mind are worthless rants that keep on telling that she is becoming distant from me. There are also times where I envy my friends who simply converse with her. How pathetic...

There were times, where in I would miss her, and I would asked myself, "WHERE IS SHE? and then, I would talk endlessly and tell myself, "I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY TO HER.. blabla" and when that actual moment where in she is ACTUALLY THERE.. It seems as if... the world is becoming frozen, my mind starts to turn blank all of the sudden and I will end up not having a fruitful conversation with her. Its as if there's something that controls me and hinders me from letting me do what I want to do.

However, I still love her despite those random feelings that I feel. Despite the tears and insanity... she still reigns in the depths of my heart.

I cried for several weeks whenever I think of the moment that we would actually part ways. I really just can't help and accept the fact of becoming distant from her.

That is when I realize that sometimes we need to learn to let go and sacrifice that something or someone... that gives us countless smiles, and tears as well. Despite that, we actually learn and grow from the experience. I know it will be hard for us to move on but eventually, TIME would heel the wounds and would actually teach us to STAND UP WITH OUR OWN FEET. These are the experiences that help us to become stronger in the near future when it comes to our future endeavors.


I will never ever regret and forget those countless joys and tears we have shared. I will never forget her smile that can actually brighten ones day.

I consider myself lucky to have JOE in my life.. and serving as an instrument of GOD's love for all of us. No wonder why.... a lot of people LOVE you so much. Your arousing compassion that truly reigns in you was indeed a great factor of your success and taught us how to love you to bits.