Tomorrow

We will be having our Linggo ng Wika celebration tomorrow. PLUS. We will be having our confession too. I need it so badly right now because I've been very sinful lately. HUHUHU.

Bad

Grabe kagabi. Nag-away kami ni ATE kasi naman ayaw ko pa mag-offline. Kasi naman noh.. I got hurt by what I saw somewhere. Hindi ko naman kaya sabihin ito kay ate noh kasi.. BASTA. Grown-ups will say.. you're too young for that. You're making a big deal out of a petty problem. Tapos, xempre I'M HAVING PROBLEMS WITH EXPRESSING LOOO........ ADMIRATION and HURT sa taong........... malapit sa......akin.Parang last night, ayoko naman siyang ayawin or anything. pero.. hindi ko mapigilang magsungit sa kanya. Ngayon nga nagsisi ako kung bakit ganun.. nagagalit ako.. wala naman siya ginagawa eh. Hai. Ewan ko. I'm .becoming SELFISH and INSECURE again.. which isn't good anymore. Insomiac. I wasn't able to sleep well last night because of the fact that the thing that I saw affected my whole being. Naiyak ako kasi lahat ng hinanakit na nararamdaman ko pumasok sa utak ko at sinubukan kong ilabas yun ng ilang oras. Iyak nga ako ng iyak kagabi kaya nga namamaga ko kanina. Sabi nga ni Krista.. kinagat ng ipis?.. haha. I'm thankful for my friends who are there to cheer me up. at shempre dahil rin kay :). Kaya nagalit si ATE kasi nga ayoko pa mag offline. But I'm still blurting out the hurt that I felt last night. I'm blurting it out with someone who is so trustworthy at expert na when it comes to love. ( I guess? ). Ang courageous niya kasi eh. Buti pa siya ang lakas ng loob sabihin kay *toot* lahat ng nararamdaman niya para sa taong yun. Kamangha mangha talaga.

bored. bored.. and uhm bored

Just got home from House of Dance. We practiced the new dance for our upcoming recital next summer.

So, I guess everybody's practicing for the Linggo ng Wika right now. Wish us luck. I hope that we would be able to finish our dance on Monday because we have to perform on Wednesday already.

I'm going to be stuck here the whole day. UGH. b0o0oring. =(

I miss SCHOOL. I miss my friends. I miss... ICE CREAM. :O

NEW LAYOUT - im tired

I spent the ENTIRE NIGHT editing this blog. It turns out to be OK. so. I HAVE A NEW LAYOUT. Its getting late. Its way passed my bedtime. Its almost midnight. Its getting dark and scary. I must have my beauty sleep already! (nyahahaha!)

kanser - slash - Johnny Depp mania

HAH.

The SHS Junoirs ( including me ) watched KANSER : Noli Me Tangere at AFP Theater. It was.. OK.. it wasn't that spectacular. The story was kinda vague too actually. Most of us slept while watching the play. I thought I was the only one who fell asleep.

When we were i the bus before watching the play.. we watched 2 of JOHNNY DEPP'S movies & an episode of ONE TREE HILL where in CHAD MICHAEL MURRAY is SO HOT.

We watched CHARLIE and THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY and SLEEPY HOLLOW.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is such a fantastic movie. It made me cry too. =p

johnny depp is SO HOT.

willy wonka willy wonka.. the amazing chocolatier.

Harry's World

Most of our teachers were gone today. HAHA! We didn't have much lessons too. I also learned something new today. It's called..... HARRY'S WORLD.

in HARRY'S WORLD .. MAY TREE pero WALANG PUNO.. may BALLET pero walang DANCE.. may KALAYAAN pero walang KATARUNGAN( awwww!).. may BALLOON pero walang LOBO...

I had a hard time figuring out the pattern of that game. Like what MISS SABORDO mentioned a while back "its mind boggling" We had a quality time with her during our " CLEAN UP TIME ". ( UGH. I hate clean ups.. especially if you need to pick up the leaves that fell from the trees.URGH. )

I envied KAMALAYAN for cleaning at the PLAYGROUND. Less leaves, less mud.. at the same time.. they were having all the fun because of the playing equipments there. nyahahaha.

Lazy

I'm feeling too lazy to study right now. I haven't even started with my homeworks yet. I'm not feeling well actually. I don't know. My stomach hurts right now. Is it because I ATE TOO MUCH TODAY? When I got home, I ate 3 bags of chip and 2 cobs of corn. WOW.

I was in the mood to make a banner right now. a CONTRADICTIING banner which also represents irony, pretty much about life.



I'm missing JajsaeoEldkalnNljdlasdNklalsanY khxsl;ajkJ;ad;ldjf;pOsjsads
right now.

Get the picture? go figure.

Friendster Fortune = Test Results?

Why expect the worst when it will probably never happen? Wipe those gloomy thoughts from your mind and focus on what's going right instead. Having a positive outlook can change the outcome in so many ways.

I was thinking.. does this have anything to do with my exam results?

Will I get higher grades in the tests that we will receive tomorrow?

love it. NOT

We receive our some of our exams a while ago. ARGH. I feel so STOO-pid. SO STRESSED. SO DEPRESSED.

I wish I could do better in the next quarter. I failed one of our exams because I wasn't able to follow directions.

STUPID! STUPID! STUPID!

I can't even relax yet because I'm still in the state of BEING SO SHOCK right now. I'm so jealous of those studnets who got VERY HIGH GRADES.

when INSECURITY strikes

I've been feeling this awful feeling lately. Its like you feel that you are the ONLY ugly person in the world. You feel uncomfortable when you talk to yourself and say "HEY.. BEAUTIFUL" you feel like your telling a lie or something. Its the awful feeling you feel when you see some beautiful ladies walking down the streets.. or wherever.. you start to stare at them.. and say.. ugh I'm feeling ugly AGAIN. Being so INSECURE is one quality that I have that I really hate. I feel like I don't appreciate the gift that GOD has given me. I know WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL but why is there a thing called COMPARISON if we are ALL EQUAL anyway?

If we are all BEAUTIFUL.. why is there such thing called UGLINESS?!

When this feeling strikes.. especially when you feel insecure with one of your classmate who is SO BEAUTIFUL inside and out, she is so talented, so smart.. EVERYBODY LIKES HER SO MUCH and you feel like the WORLD HAS TURNED ITS BACK AGAINST YOU.. you're trying to be her.. but YOU CAN'T. You think that PEOPLE CAN ONLY SEE THE NEGATIVE SIDE OF YOU.
You feel that you want to ruin that " oh so perfect girl's " reputation but you can't because THAT WOULD BE SO MEAN.

You feel insecure when you see those OH SO SEXY, OH SO BEAUTIFUL COMMERCIAL MODELS.. and then this certain questions pops on your head " WHAT DO THEY HAVE THAT I DON'T? "

........ I NEED COUNSELLING. I need to stop this madness

JEALOUSY is a mortal SIN right?

Lets Sing.. Lalalalala

weird title huh?

While I was reading Sonnet 619....

ME : * vague *. very VAGUE poem!

I'm so excited to go to school tomorrow because of................
of........ of...........MMMMMMMMMMM...


MY FRIENDS and MY TEACHERS.

but how about our TEST RESULTS?

hah. NO LESSONS for tomorrow (except in P.E.).

near death experienced : respiratory problem

WHOA. I've experienced a near death experience a while back..

When I attended my jazz dancing class, everything turned out to be OK. No pains, No worries.. I just kept on breathing in and out while doing our steps. After a while, It felt as if I couldn't breathe anymore, at the same time, hungry because I wasn't able to eat my breakfast. I was in a hurry because I thought we dont have a jazz class today. After the dance, I can barely breath. I started lying on the floor. When my mom fetched me, I told her what had happened to me.

She brought me to the hospital. I ate a lot of food today because I WAS REALLY HUNGRY. I ate 3 bags of lengua(?) a while ago because thats my favorite food. The baon that I brought today was lesser than I expected. =p

When my pediatrician checked me up, she told me to go to the ECG and have a "heart test" whatsoever. I was so nervous because I might get electrified by the wires that sticked on my body. After the ECG, We paid for it, Asked for the condition of my heart if its OK or not, I got REALLY BORED while wating for the result eventually, it turned out to be fine. My heart is in a NORMAL condition. (WHEEEW!) My doctor said, its because of over excursion(?) WHATEVER. Nabigla katawan ko kasi one week ako di nag jazz. =P

The bad news is.. I was supposed to play BADMINTON with my friend today. Unfortuantely, my mom didn't allow me anymore because I have to rest. So, i stayed at home and slept for 3 hours. I am so happy because....... * insert name here * approved me in FRIENDSTER. THAT'S RAPID.

I still need to finish my recoletters for some of my SOPHOMORE FRIENDS because they're having their recollection next week.

tatah. "im craving for BAKED OYSTERS right now"

Salvation

YAHOO. I'm rejoicing today because today is the last day of our exam.

i had a hard time in answering AP, ENTREP and COMPUTER.

I had a hard time because I was too lazy to study the topics of these certain subjects. I feel really tired because of the past tests we had especially in CHEMISTRY. Actually Chem is tolerable but there is something in that test that made it hard. During our exam week, it makes me think that teachers wants to give us a taste of their sweet revenge because of what their expereinces when they were still students like us.

After the long days of experiencing the tensions and the pressures during the exam week, we decided to have a break and we decided to have SOME FUN. I invited two of my favorite teachers MISS SABORDO and MISS PLATON, unfortunately, they won't be able to come because of their work in school. TOO BAD. =(

But.. we had fun anyway. HAHA. Rhea and Rosa were the on es who invited me to have a gimmick, unfortunately, they weren't able to accompany me because they were not allowed in the destination where I was allowed by my parents. ( I'm not sure if my sentence is correct).

They accompanied me in the dental clinic because my dentise had to adjuct my braces. We ate at Katipunan at THE OLD SPAGHETTI HOUSE. When we arrived at Eastwood, Ellanie and Gem were so conscious because they were still wearing our school uniform. When we were out of the car, we saw 2 SHSians there. They looked at us because of.. the SHS uniform? ahaha. We saw bunch of SHSians there too. We didn't expect that there would be many SHSians there. We watched a movie, The Skeleton Key, it was so scary.. but I don't understand the plot of the movie. WAHAHA.

We had fun in the Arcades too. I won the " car race game" but I lost "the drum game" right away. GOSH I was so pissed off. hahaha.

We had our picture-slash-Neoprint taken at Power Station.

We ate at Mcdo before going home. Vanity strikes again. I took a lot of pintures of me when we were still in Mcdonalds. Wahahaha.

Pinoy used to be so easy

I'm feeling so tired because of PINOY and TRIGO. Pinoy used to be so easy.. until..

JOSE RIZAL interfered in our curriculum in Filipino. I know I should be proud of him because he is the national hero BUT he's giving me a headache because of his.. FAMILY.. imagine.. he has 10 sisters and brothers. He has a very long name

JOSE PROTACIO MERCADO RIZAL ALONZO QUINTOS y REALONDA.

We need to memorize his long name too. THAT'S NOT ALL. We have to memorize the meanings of each of hius names also. WAAH. He also has 11? girlfriends I think. We also studied the "Paglalakbay or his " travel history?" .The grammar part in Pinoy is OK but the BIOGRAPHY of JOSE RIZAL ruined my grades, gives me migrabe and is killing me softly.. REALLY.. The average of my quizzes are so low and I failed. I guess I won't be surprise anymore if I get a very low grade in the card. I bet my conduct is so low because I often sleep during Pinoy( AHA! BAD GIRL! ). I don't blame the teacher because the way she teaches is not bad but the topics we discuss are the ones that destroys our grades.

First Day

English. Media Awareness. Chemistry.

English
'twas ok. I'm not sure with my analization about the poem. I learned something from the poem in our exams. I wish Miss Platon considers answers that she don't have in mind in case my answer is the not answer she has in mind.

Media Awareness
It was OK too, but I had a hard time differentiating the terms in the first part of the test because I forgot the meaning of some of the terms that were included there.

Chemistry
The test is tolerable BUT its still VERY HARD. Urgh. I forgot how to solve the problems she gave. I had a hard time identifying the words that were needed to be identified. Miss Malayas got mad at me for not tying my hair because I don't have an elastics or something to tie up my hair. Some of the first year students were very noisy after answering their exams.

MY MIND GOT DRAINED.

We'll have a test in GEOM and CL. Wish me luck.. I wish I could memorize the terms we studied in CL especially.. FREEDOM, CONSCIENCE and MORALITY.

I WISH I WOULD REMEMBER THE FORMULAS AND TERMS IN GEOM.

PLEASE PRAY FOR US. hahahaha

PISSED OFF...

So.. our Chemistry test is going to be on Monday.

I feel so stupid for leaving my NOTEBOOK and my PERIODIC TABLE in school.

Argh. Its so stupid.

and.. I shouldn't be online right now. I should be studying by now so I won't be cramming again.

I need my notebook because DUH! my notes are there.

I need the periodic table because I forgot the cations and the anions of the P.T. We need to memorize them so that we won't have a hard time in naming compounds.

I LOVE YOU MISS PLATON for not including the poems in the test. Or else.. we are going to memorize a bunch of stanzas of the poems again.

I really like discussing the poems we have discussed because, I feel inspired because of them.. I'm gaining the knowledge of interpreting poems.. When we discuss certain poems that seems to be so "ununderstandable" you know.. when it has.. unfamiliar words escially WILLIAM SHAKESPEARE'S POEMS, It helped a lot because, I get to know the poem better.


Most of our poems are all about love..

and because of THESE poems.. My mind is acquiring MORE INFOS about love. Not just my mind.. Well.. of course my heart is involve too.

Sonnet 619 : To Helen

I was inspired by Mr. William Shakespeare to make my own poem. So I thought. HEY.. WHAT IF I MAKE MY OWN SONNET POEM.

To Helen
( it doesn't mean that.. I AM REALLY INLOVE WITH SOME WOMAN NAMED HELEN ALRIGHT?)

I just feel like using the name HELEN because HELEN is my favorite name.



Let the stars shine upon the midst of the night
But you're still brighter in my sight
This story is like the love story in a movie
but the antagonist had won over me
All this feeling that's bottled up inside me
But this feeling I need to hide from thee
I am afraid I might lose you
If that happens, I don't know what to do..
The antagonist had took you away..
I feel so speechless, I dont know what to say..
He told me to stay away from you
And you felt the same way too..
When I bid my last goodbye
Tears fell from my eyes, I started to cry
This feeling so eccentric I can't define
Is this just pure admiration, or love so divine?

Love.. Hurts

It really hurts when someone special gets hurt BECAUSE OF YOU.

great.. so great

I'm feeling SO NERVOUS right now. One of the HS teachers will talk to me tomorrow because I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I'm not sure if its about * the rumor * thing. But I'll find it out tomorrow. I want to be absent tom orrow so I wouldn't talk to her anymore. But, if I'll try to styay away from the situation, She might get angrier and at the same time, my conscience will bother me more. I really need to apologize.. if its about the thing I have in mind because.. I know I MADE A BIG MISTAKE. I was predicting that this was going to happened.. well.. it really did. Well.. I learned a valuable lesson for today....

Never spread rumors or gossip when it is still not proven.. Especially.. if it destroys the moral standards and the reputation of a certian person.

If Only

DEATH DOESN'T PUT AN END TO LOVE....

So true.. because your love starts to grow when you lose the one you truly love.

AND THAT WHAT HAPPENED IN IF ONLY.

OMG. I'm so inlove with that movie right now. My eyes were so teary after watching the movie.

I learned another thing while watching the movie...

TELL SOMEONE HOW YOU REALLY FEEL BEFORE ITS TOO LATE.

There's this thing called REGRET.. when you realize... ITS TOO LATE.

Eccentric

YESTERDAY

III - Katarungan was able to have their outreach yesterday. We went to BOYSTOWN. We interacted with the grandmothers and grandfathers there. I pity some of the grandmas who lost their husbands and their child. The caregivers are giving them bad treatment too. One lola mentioned that to us. What I like about the lolos and the lolas.. is that.. they were SO ACTIVE and SO PARTICPATIVE. Everyone of us felt that we are welcome there. The lolos and the lolas were so talented too. Awww. I'm looking forward to our next visit on the last week of August.

TODAY

I had an eccentric day today. My mood swings were attacking me again. One question got stuck in my head because of the things that I have been doing lately.

DO I STILL HAVE MY CONSCIENCE?

Its as if I feel that I don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong.

We had our mass in the school a while ago. Our batch choir did great. We also earned a star for participating well.. and for behaving during the mass.

During dismissal time, I was able to reveal.. what I feel deep inside.. to one of my friends.. that is a very good listener.

She was strucked by the line I told her a while ago...

I smile at you and its as if I'm really happy
But what I feel is pain inside me...

I was stating that the smile on my face serves ask mask to cover the pains that I have deep inside.

it really hurts.. when.. someone does something wrong.. and you don't want "to make sumbong" or to tell the teacher that someone had done something wrong.. because.. YOU'RE AFRAID.. TO HURT SOMEONE.. or YOU'RE AFRAID BECAUSE.. THAT PARTICULAR PERSON WILL GET MAD AT YOU.

Well anyway..

THANK GOD. Some people were able to heal the wounds inside my heart a while ago. Ellanie was one of them.. because I was able to blurt out and to express my feelings to her. I appreciate her patience too and for her understanding me.

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY.
Hopefully, I would be able to finish the MEDIA LOG PROJECT this week. I would be able to study my lessons. wheew. I hope this weekend would be a tremendous weekend for me.
THANK GOD because there is such thing.. called THE WEEKEND. Where in we could have a break FROM STUDYING GEOM and RIZAL's Life.. YEHEY.

TODAY was my first time to hear MISS PLATON SPEAK IN TAGALOG. She's our English Teacher who ALWAYS speaks in English. hehehe.

hectic

I'm so proud of KATARUNGAN because WE WON AN AWARD because of the ENGLISH CAMPAIGN. ( We better keep this up. ) We even received a star from MISS PLATON. (awwww) hahahaha.

My schedule has been very hectic lately because of all the projects that Ihave to work on. I'm not yet done with that Media Awareness Project. We need to make 25 entries in the Media Log Thing. I'm such a procrastinator. WAHAHAHA. I love cramming. My "hardworkingness" works whenever I procrastinating. WAHAHAHA. When I do my projects earlier, I feel too lazy to do them. (Well.. it depends on my schedule and my interests). I just finished studying Trigo and Geom. We'll have our (last?) quiz in Trigo tomorrow. I better make a good grade out of this quiz because the average of my quizzes depends on this quiz. URGH.